Sometimes we fall down and have to pick ourselves back up

This week the world crashed down on my head.
Monday, I was called into the head of my department's office for a chat and was told that I had no funding and it would probably not be possible to do another rotation, it being so late into the summer. I was told that I would probably have to go home. I wish I could say I took this stoically and graciously. Unfortunately, I met this news by bursting into tears. I had worked so hard this last year and had it been for nothing!?! And I couldn't afford to move home! I don't know who this conversation was the hardest for but the head of my department looked like he wanted to cry as well. He told me he would look into all the possible options and we would meet again on Tuesday. He then rushed quickly out of the room.
I slowly made my way home with the panic building faster than I was walking. What was I going to do? I needed to talk to someone and I couldn't call my family until I had figured out what I was going to do. So I automatically called my friend Ryan. Of course he didn't answer the phone and I belatedly realized that he was probably at work. (Wrong again, he was actually on a family vacation and in the car driving to Virginia. Coincidence, I think not.) So I went to Plan B, I texted my home teacher for a blessing and then called my friend Brinton who lives down in Alexandria, VA. (For those who don't know, Alexandria is about 45 miles from Baltimore.) He let me cry to him and then started to tell me all the things I could do with this turn of events. Then he invited me to come hang out with him and his wife and her family.
I'm ashamed to say that I  rescheduled with my home teacher and I bailed out on some girls who were depending on me for a ride to FHE (ok I did bail earlier as I was walking home so they had time to find rides, but I still feel bad about it). Then I got in my car and drove to Brinton's house. The driving calmed me down enough that I wasn't a complete wreck when I got there. That visit was exactly what I needed both emotionally, spiritually, and physically. Brinton's mother-in-law bought me dinner. After I got home, my friend Robert called and we talked and he calmed me down further.
Yesterday was probably the most stressful day of my life so far and that is saying something considering I've undergone the whole grad school application process and moved across the country. It all started with my dad calling and waking me up to demand what was wrong because he had a feeling that something was wrong. So I ended up telling him the whole thing and he immediately started planning what we would need to do if I indeed was coming home. I went about following the plan and finding out necessary details. I also talked to Ryan and my home teacher came and gave me a blessing. The blessing told me to trust God and that He has a plan for me. It was a very simple and short blessing but it was what I needed to hear. I waited all day with no word by the end of the day. I talked to Robert again and watched movies with my roommate Nella.
I woke up this morning to an email to come chat with the head of my department at 11. I got ready and sat down to read my scriptures. I'm currently studying the New Testament in conjunction with this year's Sunday School curriculum. I read John 14 this morning and Heavenly Father spoke comfort to my soul in several verses of that chapter.

"Let not your heart be troubled; ye believe in God....I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you... Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."

I knew that everything would work out in the end and that it would be according to Heavenly Father's will and His plan for me.

I went to my meeting and I came out as a fully funded Master's student. Not the original plan when I came to Baltimore but in the long run I think that this will ultimately be for the best. Unfortunately for my PhD, I will have to apply all over again and start over again at a different school. But the Lord firmly has His hand in my life and with His help and direction I will become what He has planned for me even if it isn't anything at all like the plan I devised for myself. Let's be honest. If we were still following my plan, I would now be an engineer.